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I am not a fan of jukebox musicals, but I am a big fan of Corey Cott's. If I was in NYC while he was in it, I would see if.

Years ago, I went to a Cumunion party to watch. That was packed with hot guys, and there was lots to see. It has changed locations, and I believe it is now called CumPlayLa.

I attended a couple Thursdays before the pandemic and a Sunday within the last year. What you wear doesn't matter as there is a clothes check at the entrance. You pay your fee, then go through a door, where you can undress. Some guys wear clothes, most are naked. They give you a plastic bag, and you put your stuff in that. They store it behind a counter for you. I always brought the cash I needed and hid my wallet in my trunk Most of the action takes place in a pitch black room. There is another room with a bed, a sling, and abench or something that also gets action and is more watcher friendly. They're is another room with benches and an open space with a bed, neither of which got used often when I last attended. There is also a sitting area with porn where people undress. There is a hallway with booths and glory holes too. Lube and tissues are around. I went just to watch and touch. Most people do other things with multiple people, it seems. Lots of older guys. On some Thursday nights there would be a mix of guys. I realized it's not really my scene because I am too health cautious and it's hard to watch where most of the action takes place.

I will check out the article later when I have time. It does seem I know a number of younger sons who are gay, but I also have known plenty of older and middle sons who are the gay ones. Plus, the number of children varies-- youngest of 3, 7, 6. Why was son 3 is one family gay but not son 3 in another?

Did anyone see"Marie Christine"? I am curious what your thoughts were. I have loved the cast recording for years and was recently thinking about the show. The cast recording is such an incredible journey, witnessing this couple plummeting toward doom. But I also know how deceptive a great cast album can be, hiding dramatic imperfections and storytelling sloppiness that sabotage shows on stage. In my younger years, hearing Anthony Crivello as Dante . . . Wow. So incredibly sexy. It still is, though more "life" experience has watered down the effect. I have attached a few pictures of Crivello in the role for historic study.

I think about this from time to time. It's one of the few (if only) great classical musicals that hasn't been revived in the last 35 years. My latest thinking has been Patina Miller as Mame and Leslie Kritzer or Kara Lindsay as Vera Charles.

The entertainment industry is still limping along since the strikes. Work simply has not returned.

A fruend and I once went through a McDonald's drive-through in a sort of sketchy part of town at about 1:00 in the morning. Between placing my order and arriving at the window, I decided I wanted a shake. When we pulled up, I asked, "Can I get one more thing?" The server's face eyes widdened, and his expression was saying, "Oh, no." I quickly added, "Can I get a chocolate shake?" to put him at ease. Clearly, for three seconds, he thought I was going to rob him. I guess we can't understand someone else's perspective and their fears in all situations Was the guy overreacting? Probably. Should you have told him? Probably. But what can you do but apologize and communicate it to other providers? Your intentions were good.

All the Wildhorn hate! I know his shows are often not great, but I would sit through "Bonnie & Clyde" repeatedly before going to a jukebox show (unless that jukebox show starred Corey Cott). I was just talking to someone recently about "Beautiful," which was ok, but I hardly remember it. I have vivid memories of "Bonnie & Clyde," "The Civil War," and "The Scarlet Pimpernel." But I know his shows are flawed.

I recently saw Simpson guest-starring in an old sitcom. It was a fresh reminder of what a waste of a life. He had such talent, looks, and opportunity.

I have explored watching through some bar backrooms and a few sex parties. It works, but you can't always get a good view. Plus, it would be nice to have better lighting. Lol. But these have worked in a pinch. I think it would be nice to watch a long-term couple in their own home, just watch as they do their normal thing. But, I've never been able to find that.

I think if I were to go to New York for a week, I would struggle to find enough shows to fill my dance card. I'm not that picky; give me a Frank WIldhorn musical anytime. But, the prevalence of movie photocopies and jukebox musicals is disheartening.

I wish there was an easy place to find exhibitionists so voyeurs could match up our needs. I would never expect an exhibitionist to want to have sex with me (which would be the expectation using an app like Scruff), but I'd sure love to provide the voyeur service for them.

Does he participate? I love visiting The Eagle when in NYC but only to watch.

At the age of 40, I moved across country alone. Being alone meant I had to confront the reality that I was gay. It wa either make a gay friends or be stone cold alone. Growing up in church, I had been in denial, despite secretly hooking up with guys since I was 32. For the last 5 years, I have had a partner, with whom I moved in about 2 years ago. I have told 3 people from my previous life. Most people in my new life do not know either. I feel like once I two someone, it will leak into other parts of my life. My reasons for staying in the closet are my own. First of all, because of my upbringing, it is traumatic to come out. When I told one of my best friends of over 24 years, I cried. I knew she would be supportive, but I cried. Secondly, it feels intensely personal. To say you are gay is to identify as a sexual person and to bring your sex life into a conversation, something that is against my generally shy, private nature. Thirdly, I know there are people in my life who would be disappointed. All of my closest friends would not care, except for one who harbors feelings for me and would be confused. But I know there are people who respect me who would be disappointed (people from my various religious pasts). I have a very hard time disappointing people. Fourthly, my partner is quite a bit older and doesn't discuss his sexuality with his family, although they all know. So, I have never met his family. I feel like if my friends and family met him, they may not support my choice. Since he is uncomfortable meeting my family, and I have never met his, it works out. Lastly, if my brother's ex-wife found out and told her wicked mother, I worry she would try to make it difficult to see my nephew. It is hard at times to stay closeted because you can't always fully explain your actions, like why I don't like to see friends on Saturdays, which is usually when I spend time with my partner. My family can't understand why I don't move back home. Truthfully, I am dying to; I miss my family too much and miss my old life. But I don't want to leave my partner. This is particularly hard because the industry I moved away to join, frankly, is miserable. Whether we are gay, bi, out, closeted, in denial, in denial and making bad decisions, I feel like we need to be kind and compassionate. We are on this difficult journey of trying to live the life our bodies dictate, which has historically not been easy, and some people are on different stages of that journey. When I see people speaking publically against gays and then hear they are actually gay, I feel compassion for their miserable life and the regrets they will have to live with.

I don't know that area specifically, but I have heard the nearby stretch of Dillon between Palm Drive and 62 us unsafe at night. I would not feel comfortable myself.

In NYC, they seem to play shorter songs, if my memory serves me.

Yes, I think we just need to be thankful he finds the spaces he can find. It can't be easy to find a place to have naked men walking around. I am sure Matt does his best to find the best spaces he can.

Stefan may have been there. It was a bit on the dark side, so I couldn't tell you. The venue isn't as nice as the house. It was so dark; it was hard to see the guys. The lap dance area was less dark than at the house, though, so it was fun to see what was going on with other guys. There were two porn guys, Jack Waters and another guy whose name I don't know. I heard them talking, as if they had been on set together. Had dances with 4 guys. Mariano has the most incredible butt on the planet. Joshua is still my favorite. Wish I had gotten to him earlier. Really nice group of guys. I am definitely learning the lap dances are best with the gay guys.

Looks like a studio. I will be curious to see how the vibe is different.

It is just the performers.

Now that I am in my mid-40s, I am noticing interest from younger guys. I have been with two 28-year old guys. Had a ton of fun with both. I didn't have sex with anyone until I was 32. My first years of sex were mostly with guys 20-30+ years older than myself. As a bigger, hairy guy so hidden in the closet, I refused to share pics. It was the older guys who would take a chance. There was one guy who could hardly make it up the stairs of his condo. I had a lot of fun with older guys and learned a lot. One was a pilot, not model handsome, but he enjoyed pleasing me and introducing me to new things in bed. We started out by making out, then jumping into the shower together. Lots of fun times when he was in town. I hated when he retired. My partner is 18 years my senior. We've been together 5 years, and I am still smitten. His sexual interest has waned, so I am open to get my needs met elsewhere. He has family history on his side and takes very good care of his health; I don't think there is a scenario where I outlive him. I am still hot for older guys! Last week, I met a new guy at work- shaved head, square cut white beard. Couldn't help but wonder what he looked like under his sweatshirt and jeans. I loved learning from the older guys. I loved having them take care of my needs.

I think I would be mortified if I had been intimate with someone my dad had been with. I would feel just as mortified if it had been the other way. I think the dad is grossed out and protecting his son from the same feeling.

That is very bizarre. So straight (guns) and so homoerotic (tight undies?).

I never hired him. Tipped and chatted with him as a go-go. Very nice man.