Jaker27

Definitely it was Bigvalboy.

That is why I say in my experience. I don't say all or everyone either.

In my experience most bisexuals are actually just gay men afraid to identify as gay. Hell I was bisexual till I finally got honest with myself. Then there's the trust issues. Hard for them to stay monogamous. Whoever there with will never be enough for them. Most I know end up in straight relationships as cover. Rarely do they do gay relationships. I have no issues with them but I can also see the animosity.

No wonder gay men fear getting older more then the rest of the population. I used to see older gay guys out in Weho at the clubs and feel so sad for them. They just looked so lonely and sad. So yeah, that became my biggest fear. Loss of identity and no longer being welcome in the community. Sex and sexuality is a big part of our identity and the community was built on that for better or worse. Bars, clubs, circuit parties, and many other gay stuff. Anyone who doesn't fit in will be excluded. Age is a big factor in that of course. Unless you're a celebrity or it's your house that they're using. I went out recently to Weho on Saturday night. In the past I remember getting so excited by the prospects of who I was going to meet and maybe hook up with. Except this time all I could feel was that it's too late and I'm tired. Ha. Clearly I've aged out of that. As time goes by I've lost interest in all that juvenile stuff. Well, sometimes I'll go out to a bars once in a while. Friends and family are my community and identity now. It's still weird though since I spent such a big part of my life escaping family for the glitz and glammer. I don't even recognize the club kid that I once was.

That settles it. Now I'm officially intrigued.

I think it usually means less hardcore drugs like MJ as opposed to stuff like meth.